Inspired by a song then i started to think why should people come and leave....why should i know another new character.....why should i run something different and why should i stay in an unexpected situation. i rather be in an old condition where there's only me, the old characters, and classic situation. Yes...there would always be conflict within it, but i knew the prediction, and it would be clear without another conflict that appear after the situation.

The inspiration comes with;

"people come into our lives for a reason... they bring something we must learn, though we never know what should we learn from that person."

And yes...we would never finish our journey without new things in our live...and that's why our live is called a journey. Journey comes along with a beginning, climax, and ending. The beginning of our live comes along with our own birth. the existence of another unique character. At this moment, a new born baby becomes something new for lots of people....and they are also become something new for the baby....a meeting. Means; the beginning of a relationship.

As time goes by the baby is not a baby anymore. They grow....have a deeper feeling....wider knowledge....more complicated matters around their life. They start recognize and make rooms for family, friends, romance, foe, and more.... They could read the condition and decide what's best for the them.

Many people and my own.... finally giving a statement that; "experience is the best teacher ever."
Then the inspiration also said:

"So let me say before we part...
So much of me is made from what i learned from you.
You'll be with me like a handprint on my heart.
And now...whatever way our stories end... i know you have re-writen mine by being my friend."

How we would be...what we are...and how would we recognize build by our experience of meeting, how we follow up the meeting and end up the meeting. All things would be meaningful if you think it is... but...it would be nothing if you think it was all just a wind-dancer...

- pei -

B'day means....another brand new year to continue your journey....

Continue your journey with the blessing of God,because The Mighty one had given you the very best plan for your future,though it seems like disaster from your mortal eyes... Try to see the disaster from behind....'coz there's always be rainbow after the storm....

Have a very special moment with your family, friends,and your beloved one.God Be With you...

Happy Birthday for my dear father....

A salutation i lift for you,because you had given me and your surrounds the very best things that you could gave.

Proud to be your daughter....that's a sentence i want to say to you in every single day of my journey....

Love you Dad...

-pei-

Give What They Need

Kesan pertama yang saya rasakan mengenai LFL adalah; acara reuni alumni ISI. Pertanyaan - pertanyaan seperti; “kok isine cah ISI kabeh?”, “reuni po yo?”, atau pernyataan; “gayeng iki.” . Pertanyaan dan pernyataan tersebut terjawab semua dengan hal yang positif. Memang sebagian besar peserta yang mengikuti kegiatan ini adalah alumni ISI Yogyakarta yang juga berdomisili di Yogyakarta. Memang akhirnya terasa seperti reuni antar angkatan, namun hal tersebut membuat saya lebih nyaman dan merasa berada dalam keluaga sendiri. Satu hal yang menjadi sesuatu yang baru, semua senior saya menjadi seseorang yang sudah berdampak. Bukan karena mereka sukses akan usaha yang mereka kerjakan, tetapi karena konsistensi mereka di bidang DKV.

Saya memang tercatat sebagai seorang dosen, namun saya tidak pernah merasakan bahwa saya adalah seorang dosen. Untuk saya, seorang dosen merupakan seorang sosok penuntun yang bisa memberikan pengajaran dan motivasi murid – muridnya untuk melakukan apa yang mereka impikan. Hal tersebut merupakan persepsi atas seorang dosen sebelum saya mengikuti LFL, dan ternyata persepsi yang berasal dari diri saya tersebut merupakan definisi atas kata ‘dosen’ bagi para mentor LFL. Senang sekaligus bangga selama ini saya mempunyai sudut pandang yang tidak salah.

Materi – materi yang diberikan oleh para mentor sejak hari pertama kegiatan sampai hari terakhir ini semakin mencelikkan mata saya, bahwa saya belum melakukan apa – apa untuk bisa disebut sebagai ‘dosen’. It’s not about the rule, it’s about ‘what have you done for them?’ Hari ini, setelah saya mempresentasikan tugas – tugas yang saya kerjakan, ternyata banyak komentar yang sedikit kurang baik untuk saya, dan keimpulan yang saya dapatkan adalah; “I should be learn to understand the place and the condition (the audience need) to communicate our knowledge.”

In to it....

i have no idea...what should i do to done what i start. I get influenced by others and now...i stuck into it. A great idea it was, i feel enjoy to run it...but i feel down when i saw others quality. could i finish it with a proud in it? I know i have responsibility to get through it... i have challenge inside my responsibility... Sometimes i dream that i am a super girl that could handle everything with just a click or a witch, so i could make it done before all people reveal it....

This is my decision, i have to finish it. One day i could be falling in love to this job...now, when i am down...i also could truly in to it... just like someone who find the one he/she love....

Just get in to it...and you'll be someone new, with a brand new spirit....

-pei-

it is not an easy one....i know it's difficult or even more complicated. It is not a usual thing that could be solve in a moment. it is seems to be something "only", but it's not "only". For something like this i should keep it secretly deep down in my heart, though it is not always being something that should be kept by. When i decide that i should forget it, i should avoid it, or i should not be in a condition, i know that i should be a consistent one....and i be one of them right.

none

What i want to say is what i write in here.....

I have nothing to say, so i have nothing to write on....

and so.... This is me and my world....

Mind of Me

Me.........
I'm Penny. They used to call me 'pei'. Don't know why, but i like my name, although not rare my name become mocking thing. I believe there is always a deep meaning framing the name. I don't know what's my name mean. I just wishing they gave me those name for my own good and others good. A name is a wish and pray, so i just say: 'may my name be bless for me and surrounds.'

I am a girl with an ordinary life. Have hobbies, favorite things, and all stuffs like all people have. I love learning something, analyze something and love to read. I don't know why i realy in love with books, maybe it's just because i like to be alone, and thinking wahat i want to think. I realy in love with classic and jazz. Sometime i think that my life before was a musician with lack of friends enjoying life with my thinkin, my music and books.
One thing that makes me looks cheerful in front of them, 'my carracter', it makes me complete. I could hiding my distrackness in front of them, still cheerful and keep talking.
Cooking is one of my hobbies, it always makes me happy, not only me, those thing also not rare make people surrounds me happy. I love changing blue to pink, orange, or green.

Birth!!! For me birth is just the same as death. Birth and dead are one. My arrival to this world was on October 9'85. I hope i could finish my life with a winning that more than an ordinary winning. Life is like a race!!!!! Find the purpose as the finish line.

My dream is finishing my life with a crown. One thing i have to do is build a school with my own perception of education. All kids needs a humble mind to eccept the education. If they open their mind, they will understand what we thought to. Notonly just understand, but they will keep it in their mind and finnaly they done what perfectly they should done.